Fed UP!!!

Im sitting here, thinking! Of all the things i have done for others i dont quite understand the concept of the good that comes with it. I am so pissed off right now i just need someone to talk to. Things are falling apart, our financial troubles have put such a burden on me, i can hardly afford a pack of pampers anymore Whats wrong with this picture??? Noone wants to help us when we are in need, everyone is either broke or claming to be.. where is family when you need them? I really am confused with this whole situation as to why my life can be so crazy insane.
I dont have anyone to talk to about it. I dont have any reasonable soultions.. I would love to leave it all behind and run away... sometimes i think if i was just to divorce myself from this whole crazy situation i could really do alot better for myself and my kids. You see i have what some like to call a strong mind but over the last 4 years of my marriage i have lost it... is it because of his mother? because of his sisters? because of his family..?? or is it my family? my brothers always try and help me when they can, they are actually the only ones i can rely on, the only ones i know will help us and not hold it over my head. Others in both sides of the family just remember what they've done for us, not what i have done for them. I have bent myself backwards for both sides of this insane family... putting out everything i can to calm and silvilze a family but hell in return they only remember the small bits i have done for them whatever though right... i can only live for myself. whatever though right!! whatever... i cant even talk about it anymore im fed up with telling everyone whats wrong with them... they done listen anyways im done for now!