OVERWHELMED

Today is March 19, 2009 & i have 8 days until i am able to move back into my home that was damaged by Hurricane Ike. Instead of feeling what should be a since of relief i feel so OVERWHELMED, it feels like everything around me and close to me is out of my reach. The packing wont do itself and the kids wont make there own lunch, the bills are not paying themselves & my husband's doc apt are sucking are bank account dry. This isn't the first time Ive felt like this, in fact in the month of March it's been pure stress. Stress is going to come and go i understand that & there isn't any advice that friends haven't told me yet. I guess i kinda feel like as much as i do for others, family in general, there should be a little more concern. Do i not show my worrisome enough, do other just not care what I'm going through? what is it that my family cant see clear enough that i need some HELP, i have a sister in law, who's jobless, kid less and worrisome less. I wish she was knocking at my door step right now offering a little bit of help. Or brothers who are in the same boat, but in reality i am guessing they are all about how they can help themselves, because i sit here at this computer.. going over and over in my head, & trying to make list that are not worth making. The reality is: There is not enough arms, time, strenght or mind mentality to do it all by myself. I don't even know where to start. And even if i did the hurt of no help bothers me considering all that i do for others.. the days i have took en off of work to run and Arron for someone, or the sleepless nights Ive stayed awake crying with that broken hearted girl, or the hours spent doing things that didn't benefit me. I am starting to believe that i just need to let them all figure things out on there own, find a new person to lean on & then pick myself up and learn all over again how to take care of myself.